I feel so helpless. I don't know what to think or do anymore. I want to be with my boyfriend more than anything, but there are some things getting in the way. I believe that these things shouldn't get in the way, but he believes otherwise. Therefore, I'm stuck here without him. I want to be with him more than anything. It just seems like he should feel the same way. I just don't understand why he'd let things get in the way of us being together. The whole situation just bothers me so much. I wish that I could just put it behind me and be able to cherish the time that him and I get to talk, but sometimes I can't. We end up fighting about the whole thing all over again. I can't help it. I can't seem to ignore it. It's getting in the way of us having a happy and healthy relationship. The thing is...I'm not happy. I've been depressed ever since he told me that I couldn't come out there now. Maybe I should just hold it in and pretend that everythings ok. Maybe I'll forget about it every once in awhile and I'll be happy for a little while. I hope I'll just get over all this. ::Thinks Happy Thoughts:: I'm ok...everythings ok.. I'm happy.